Is how I feel.
I can't put my finger on anything that's 'wrong' but something isn't right.
I'm getting fed up with food - I miss being able to not think about it - sure I was a greedy bugger and I would think about food, but it didn't really matter before. I'd plan what main meals to have when doing the food shop. Chuck some cereal in a tub, add milk at work and that was breakfast. Lunch I'd see what was on the menu and have soup or baked potato at work.
Now I've got to plan 3 meals plus 3 snacks every single day. I'm only home for one meal and one snack so I've got to think of things that are work friendly. It's too expensive and time consuming to come up with different things to have daily - even having two options for each and alternating is tough and adds a whole other layer of thought and planning to eating.
But it's eating whatever I fancied, whenever I fancied that made me unhappy and fat in the first place!
I don't want to eat crap but I cannot spend my life with food having such a big impact and so much control over me! I know this isn't going to be permanent but it just seems like the end is so far away. In february I set myself a goal of losing 1.5 stone - that took 5 months!! And I still have about the same again left to lose. I think the whole thing of getting to goal then realising I still had so much further to go might be bringing me down a bit - I achieved my goal but still don't like what I see so feel as though I haven't achieved anything.
I thought about switching to maintenance cals for a week or so - but that wont help, I'll need to put even more thought into eating more and still keeping it healthy. I don't want to just take time off from the whole thing because I'll put weight on! Having a few extra pounds isn't a big issue, but I have been unhappy with my weight since high school and feeling fat brings me down too - I feel worse about being fat that I do right now so obvioulsy being fat and happy is not the answer!
I guess I just need to ride it out and hope it passes soon.
On the plus side, it's onlt the food stuff getting me down - I'm still really enjoying the exercise and hate if I have to miss it!